Ash Wednesday, one year later by foreverfrodo, literature
Literature
Ash Wednesday, one year later
Memento homo
A year has slipped away and I find the same day, deserted.
Where has it gone, the smile in my eyes?
What has happened since then
when I spent all day colouring my fingernails
and waiting for the night?
The thrill of the moment.
The enchantment of the music.
The exhilaration upon seeing your face.
The rush at the applause.
Those brief moments when I thought the world was mine and
Forever ceased to be an abstract.
What has happened since then?
quia pulvis es
The grey and the bleakness and the routine
when did they start to have a hold on me?
Furtively, unnoticed, they crept.
They grew, unwelcomed, yet unopposed.
The essence is fading
and the burning passion
becomes a dying flame
The memories grow weaker
as I render time its due
Here I am again
back behind the paper walls
the smile of glass
and no one seems to notice
There is no trying to resist
The colours grow dim
in every picture once painted
The pearl is lost
never to be found again
and laughter is carried away
by the furtive wind
The tide is rising
the floodsam of the past
will not trouble the soul forever
And yet - the buildings may crumble
but the stones are still there
You are a forgotten song
but still your face is the only constant in my dreams
Was I wrong to let you i
And as I gaze on pinnacles and spires
On green nestling between centuries of stone
As Merton's bell chimes in the evening hour
Eternity is only a hand's breadth away.
If only you were here.
The air is clear.
Keen and beautiful is the moment, and yet
it hurts unlike anything I have ever felt
The thought, I must away.
You ask me where I found true love?
I found it
in your rivers,
on your meadows,
in your cobbled streets,
in the smell of books,
and in the trembling sound of choir music at night.
I felt your kiss
in your soft air upon my lips
and the caresses of your wind upon my hair.
I lost my heart somewhere between your spires
to find it - never again.
So dream on, you ancient place of stone and memory.
In your splendor and wisdom
shine against the growing darkness, defy the dying light.
Until we meet again, dream on.